| "tell him you need to get fucked to within an inch of sanity." |
[Mar. 18th, 2009|08:42 pm] |
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| | kelly clarkson - don't let me stop you | ] | i never feel motivated to update this thing. i feel like those of you who read this already know what's going on with me. and then when i do consider updating i realize how long it has been and there's just NO way i'll be able to remember everything worth mentioning. i fail. enough complaining. a couple of things:
- - seems like i'm never going to move out. original plans had included moving out with cristina somewhere in long beach (miguel!), but i feel like she keeps dropping random hints every now and then implying that she won't be able/doesn't want to move out any time soon. which is fine, but i'd like to just KNOW. there is another option, though. marline might be moving to a condo in santa ana and had previously asked me if i'd like to move in. i didn't accept or decline, so hopefully if i wanted to the offer would still be available. but do i really want to live in santa ana... still? and the parking in the complex seems dismal. i've not lost hope. - oh, and a car. been driving around in a 'uci dad' minivan. sexy. don't like it, but saving money for a down payment is not easy. it's happening, though. slowly but surely. - speaking of saving money, i'm one of three people at work who hasn't been reduced to part-time status. i suppose i should feel lucky. - i like you so much better when you're naked! - a sign of the times: my left ankle, both my knees and my lower back have been causing me quite a bit of pain these past couple of weeks. it hurts a little to walk up the stairs at work in the mornin'. sigh. - for some time now i've been having dreams that involve various people that i no longer talk to. i wouldn't mind them so much if they didn't cause me to wake up in the morning feeling so confused and/or annoyed. - almost done with season 2 of lost! blame it on shane. - uncertainty. do not like.
having said all that... things are good.
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[Jul. 13th, 2008|06:27 pm] |
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| | the ting tings - be the one | ] | my last update was 8 months ago. yeah, plenty has happened since then and we’ll see how motivated I am to write it all out.
- in case you didn’t know by now, i no longer work at subway. i haven’t worked there since late january/early february and, well… yeeaaahhh, there’s no way i’m going back. i’m not particularly thrilled about where i work right now but i make more than i used to and it’s the office experience i need in order to do what i want to do later on. and i get to work with cristina so that’s always nice :D i won’t get into what i want to do because, well, i don’t want to. but i know what i want to do and that’s kind of nice. - went to san francisco back in… uhm, when was it? january? ugh, i don’t even remember when it was but i went up there with aroucha and we stayed with char (THX AGAIN! let me know when you’re moving again so i can help kbai). as usual it was fun. OH finally got to see more of where char (and now emil?) works which was uber cool. some highlights include: going to char’s work, kara’s cupcakes, mmm thai food, trying to remove red nail polish from char’s white table, having to buy an umbrella in chinatown because it suddenly began to rain, and aroucha yelling at me for walking to fast while she’s sucking away at a cancer stick and trying to tell me about westside story. - last time i updated my car had about 92k miles on it. It now has 103k miles on it. and the check engine light is no longer on! that’s pretty damn good for a ford. but, uh, it still sounds like poo. i’m saving some money for something new, though. - concerts/shows i’ve been to: the spice girls and melanie c (i think i mentioned this in the last post), kelly clarkson (at the gibson ampitheatre with and lauren), kathy griffin (at segerstrom hall in the performing arts center with , lauren and scott), wicked (at the pantages or whatever with shaday), margaret cho (at the orpheum with marline and milton [“the only thing sleazier than cruising for dick on myspace is crusing for dick on craiglist.”]), the “buffet of manliness” that is mika (at the wiltern with , lauren and an endless amount of homos in v-necks), rita rudner (at the flamingo in vegas with crystal), joel mmmmchale (at the improv with , lauren and shane), lisa lampanelli (at the grove with cristina), berlin (at the ladera ranch food festival… which doesn’t really count because we didn’t go to see them in particular but they were there and that was cool), robyn (at the wiltern with shane), and last night saw ricky gervais (at the kodak theatre with and lauren). aaand at the end of the month i’ll be seeing cirque du soleil’s zumanity with cristina in vegas. after that i have NOTHING to look forward to. i wish i could’ve seen the ting tings at the roxy and the veronicas. maybe some other time. - i turned 23 in april! so i went to west hollywood with people that matter and mostly thanks to miguel i needed help walking back to the car and ended up passing out in the backseat. and apparently i refused to open my birthday gifts, but i don’t remember that and i think you’re all liars. and like you know by now, scott went all straight-man on some drunken dude who was leaning on car outside of astro burger. - been going to knott’s berry farm a lot lately. went with cristina and michael for eryika’s birthday, went for my birthday with my sister, went just for kicks with marline after work last week… and apparently i might be going again sometime next month for some company picnic thing my dad’s job is throwing. - i’ve been to the movies quite a bit lately. last week i saw an indie flick called ‘the visitors’ with aroucha and jules. but i also saw ‘the strangers’ which was actually pretty scary and it’s always fun going with someone who gets scared easily. like when i saw the orphanage with helen… good movie but i was too busy laughing at her getting scared all the time. - oh btw if you didn’t know by now i’m officially done with uci. i had my commencement ceremony sometime last month and it was actually a lot shorter than i had expected, which was good. and i was very pleased with the people who attended it. - summer hasn’t been THAT hot but one day i was out with cristina and miguel in long beach when it was pretty damn hot and i was in a long-sleeved shirt and jeans (as usual). so, in their blah attempt at getting all “queer eye” on me, we went to macy’s and they had me buy shorts. shorts... i hadn’t worn shorts in a long, long time. thought I’d share that with you because it’s such a life-changing event. - - you know tom on kathy griffin’s my life on the d-list? he looks like a creepy pedo. thought i’d share that with you. - a few weeks back i went on a bike ride with cristina. we started out on balboa and rode our bikes toward laguna beach. we didn’t actually get all the way to laguna beach, we got to about corona del mar and then rode back. it was actually pretty intense and tiring. but the best part of it all was that we had gone in the morning so i had decided to wear a sweater because it was kind of cold. about half way through the ride, it had gotten a little warm so i pulled up each sleeve a bit. the following day, i looked down at my arms and realized i had gotten this stupid, uneven tan. i tried to fix it last weekend with by sitting out at the pool but that did absolutely NOTHING. ugh, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? - been going to all sorts of restaurants lately. i like eating like a cow. some of the places i’ve tried in semi-recent history: some random ethiopian restaurant in little ehtiopia (with helen), the winery (with shane), vinoteque (with miguel and his friends sam and dan), roma d’italia (with marline), all sorts of taquerias (with cristina) and mel’s diner (with and lauren). - spent 4th of july with at her place. we cooked some chicken, had some drinks, played some games, watched some tv, watched the lights from the fireworks shine onto the trees as we layed out by the pool at night. it was all relaxing. for someone as ~*insanely popular and busy*~ (cough) as myself, those relaxing days come so few and far between that they’re oh-so cherished. - next weekend is the oc fair with and lauren. you know what that means… and if you don’t, come with and you’ll find out. i hope my arteries are prepared again. - ugh, million dollar baby is so depressing. - lastly, i’ve been wanting to move out for some time now. it really comes down to one thing: do i want to move in with some random stranger or do i want to move in with someone i know? i already know where i’d like to move to (preferably long beach but i’m not opposed to other places), it just comes down to finding the right person and place. sigh… anytime now.
all in all, things are going well. i wonder how long it’ll take until my next update…
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[Nov. 8th, 2007|12:16 am] |
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| | kelly clarkson - sober | ] | i started writing this almost two months ago and kept getting sidetracked. i had to make a couple of changes here and there... but i finally finished, woo! i make writing an lj entry more difficult than it should be. LONG ENTRY AHOY! don't act like you've got something better to do. and i hate lj cuts so deal with the length:
things i've done - saw many movies that i knew would suck and some that unfortunately sucked: harry potter and the order of the phoenix (seeing teens wave around twigs and yell, "STUPIFY!!!" does not get me riled up), i know who killed me, elizabeth 2: the golden age and michael clayton. - but not all sucked: the transformers (char ftl), the simpsons movie, dedication, shoot 'em up (clive owen ftw!), the darjeeling limited (with aroucha)... OH GOD I HAVENT SEEN RESIDENT EVIL YET! GAAHHH. - i went to a nudie bar for the first time ever... with a bunch of lesbians. oh, and michael. the chick who approached me when we got there was pretty, but whatever sexiness she had at first disappeared as soon as she did this spastic rubdown on my arm and asked me how i was doing. anyway, it was full on nudity. we sat around the pole/stage and degraded women for a while. it was quite fun, actually. oh, and this chick stuck her finger in her pussy. - ~*JAMIE*~'s bday in august: went to the tin lizzie to ring in her birthday. scott and ~*JAMIE*~ got hammered and i enjoyed a few free drinks from our buddy with his mom's platinum amex... headed to vegas the next day with lauren, ~*JAMIE*~ and scott. arrived, drank plenty for ~*JAMIE*~ and scott who were refusing to drink after their excess drinking the night before, saw an unexciting ka, had a fun dinner with a not-so-fun entree, saw CELINE!!!, and drank some more. whips were included. - had dinner with sexxxtina, jon, patrick, and a couple of other ppl that i don't know at honda ya in tustin. it was so good. - saw mandy moore and paula cole in a co-headlining concert at the house of blues in anaheim with ~*JAMIE*~ in august. they were both really good! mandy moore started it off and she looked and sounded great. paula cole's music is very "deep" and "meaningful," which is a bit too much for my feeble brain, but she's got an amazing voice and she's a great performer. - helped miguel move/unpack from long beach to... long beach. parking sucks ass around there. actually, its not as horrible as it could be, i suppose. either way, he's about 10 seconds from a bunch of bars so it's all good. - spontaneous trip to tijuana with marline. there were churros, candy, 4 margaritas, and plenty of amazingly good al pastor tacos... all for a ridiculously small amount of money. i was happy with how little i'd spent until we drove around parts of tijuana that were just really depressing and almost hurt to see... so many makeshift houses that were made out of cardboard, thin pieces of wood, etc., all the poverty-stricken families... and here i am living in my little bubble. - i've been enjoying lots of late night happy hour sessions at dave and buster's with marline. plenty of drinks for low, low prices and fun, fun bar games. we're slowly but surely trying to take over the high scores on some of the games. if you go to the one at the block... look for the name "levas." kthx. - speaking of marline, took her and karina to their first gay bar. chose the tin lizzie because it's gay but not ABBEY gay. and getting to choose your own music is always fun. - went with emil to "downtown" santa ana to the artist's village to see some art exhibit of a friend of his. i can honestly say that i FAIL at appreciating art to its fullest extent. i can walk around and look at things for a while and even enjoy myself... but for such a limited amount of time. i'm not cultured. - had lots of really good thai food with la helen and renee in los angeles followed by chocolate from a gas station and drinks at the abbey. and then martin had to be a downer and call renee to tell her he got a flat tire. what an inconsiderate douche. ;) must try indian food next. - got to see some mary's co-workers at a "reunion" held at a hookah bar one of my manager's owns. it was good to see a lot of ppl i hadn't seen in a while and its nice to know that we all still hate the beloved owners that kicked us to the curb. - i rented a car to drive up north to visit char and help her move from san francisco to... san francisco. notice a theme with the moving? anyway, i got an '07 honda civic. i was indifferent about it when i first saw it because i kind of wanted to try driving the ford fusion. however, i ended up really liking it and returning to the focus was an unpleasant experience at first. but i still love my car. i left on a friday at about 10am and got there at 4pm. there was only traffic in la. stupid la. got there before char got out of work so i walked around, did some reading and went to kara's cupcakes, which i'd seen on tv a few weeks prior. so good! i got to drive a uhaul for a bit again, i felt so butch. and then i looked at char and felt like a woman again. and then i looked at char trying to lift something remotely heavy and felt like a man for a second. the food in san francisco is good. and so is the food at ikea. that's right, i said it. the drive back only took 5 hours. all in all i had plenty of fun. and got a good workout. and char FAILS. - spent halloween at work, followed by a quick trip to disneyland with marline and a cameo appearance by ~*JAMIE*~ and scott, headed over to outback steakhouse where i didn't have steak, walked around the block for a bit, met up with marline's boyfriend and went to... dave and buster's for late night happy hour and games at the bar. SURPRISE! 6 drinks and who-knows-how-many-games later... i was happy. but not drunk. it is dave and buster's after all. and i didn't have to pay for my drinks. major plus. - watched extras with ~*JAMIE*~ and scott on friday and then with just ~*JAMIE*~ on saturday. good show! but x-rated and pumpkin pie really do make an evening fun. and sangria. eh, the company, too. - the internship is going... yeah, it's going. the ppl aren't nearly as depressing as they were upon starting, but that's not really saying much. at least i've been doing other things... like setting up a workshop, planning other events, and doing outreach. i did outreach this tuesday and took marline along with me so she could see me in *action*. for some reason the ppl at proof/club stiff were more approachable and nicer than the ones at shark club/(i forget what its called on thursdays). anyhoo, i got all my surveys done within 10-15 mins and didn't realize how many homos had my same zip code.
things to look forward to - this year's going out with a gay bang! i'm going to see kelly clarkson (gibson ampitheatre, i think), kathy griffin (oc performing arts center? idk.) and the spice girls (staples center)! don't judge me. its not like i'm going to the hannah montana concert. although if someone said, "hey, i got a spare ticket for the hannah montana concert, wanna go for free?" i don't think i'd object. actually, yeah, i would. - if things go according to plan, this should be my last quarter at uci... and i'll be a graduate. finally, eh? i suppose 4 years and one quarter isn't all that bad. woo! i can't wait to graduate and hit that stage in life where i'm so fucking confused and ready to slit my throat! - AFTER graduating... idk what i'm doing. yeah, i suck at looking ahead. but what i do know is that i want to go a couple of places before i start taking anything seriously. i'd been talking with marline about going somewhere within the us, we just haven't really decided where. OH and miguel is going to barcelona. bitch better tell me when he's buying his ticket because i want to go, too... except i want a roundtrip ticket, kthxbai. - thanksgiving, xmas, and new year's eve are coming up... what are we doing? i don't want to spend another new years eve alone again. the last two times i spent them at work. i suppose its not all that exciting anyway.
in other news... - i've come to the conclusion that i drink too much. i wouldn't go so far as to say that i'm an alcoholic or anything, but i do consume a lot of alcohol. and i don't get drunk. the last time i was wasted was... either las vegas or some random time in long beach. i think it was in long beach. but that was a while ago. point being, i really want to keep my liver. - i'm stuck with this feeling of resentment. it's been bothering me for way too long and i don't really see an end to it in sight, which only helps to bother me even more and gets me even more pissed off. - this song makes me sad. but i love it. - oh, britney spears. i listened to her cd fearing that i would genuinely enjoy it. i did not. the only "highlight" of the cd is gimme more. although i will admit that i like the opening to that song... you know, "it's britney, bitch." but now i'm gonna have to put up with ppl deciding they want to insert their own name into it. "it's *insert name here*, bitch!!11!" - oh, and i got a new digital camera! it's got hd video recording. not that i need it, but that's cool, i guess! and a big display! - ugh, my car is finally starting to die on me. :( it reached the 92k mile mark less than a week ago and now its starting to do this creepy rumbling thing whenever i'm at a stop for too long. pls make it to 100k! - i bet ~*JAMIE*~ is reading this instead of writing an exciting article. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2007|10:05 am] |
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| | kelly clarkson - judas | ] | lots of ~*stuff*~ has happened in the past few weeks... so i'll try to make it brief, but i'm not guaranteeing anything.
highlights - asked my dad where he wanted to go for dinner on father’s day… he chose the five-star shakey’s. dad, mom and i went and it went well. - my sister and i took mom to san manuel the night before her bday to celebrate… she’s addicted to slots. needless to say, she didn’t win anything, but it was spontaneous and fun. our father doesn’t know we went. - the next day, the dad took us out to dinner at some place called the chili pepper or something in orange. a nice little place. and awkward dinner. it was the first time the 4 of us sat down and ate together in years. lots of random silence. - so far the internship at the center is going okay. ppl are finally opening up a little. - did some more fine dining with my coworker: went to norm’s one evening and sizzler after i got out of work one sunday. i swear i had no say in choosing sizzler… it went like this: “want to go get something to eat?” “sure, I’m just getting out of work.” “ok, I’ll wait for you at sizzler :click:” - spent 4th of july at work and then at ~*JAMIE’s*~ with her and her friend ralph. sangria, expensive sutter home wine, pear cider, hamburgers, some sausage-y things and chips added to the fun. - went to bower's museum with my sister to go see the gems. they were super cool… we stared at this huge diamond for a long time and watched it ~*shine*~. and we saw some tombs and mummys. sexy. - hung out with miguel and his other bff mary or whatever and watched the palindromes (sp?)… good movie. note to self: rent/buy and watch again. - watched license to wed and transformers with ~*JAMIE*~. will have to go watch transformers again to look for char’s name. also watched chasing liberty one night and happy endings on another with ~*JAMIE*~ at her house. sangria was present. OH and finally took her to chick-fil-a to get nuggets and went to the drive-thru panda express. - went with marline to the indoor shooting range. - happy hour with a junior high friend that i hadn’t seen since high school. i heart el torito’s happy hour menu. - went to thai wave with renee aka “martin’s girlfriend” for dinner. note to martin: ask her about her anti-amputee invention. went to bounce with miguel and ~*JAMIE*~ where, for the first time in a long time, it was not overflowing with men who use canes. - took ~*JAMIE*~ and lauren to madre’s since i really wanted to go and didn‘t want to cancel reservations. the sangria was good, ceviche was also good, entrée wasn’t that bad… but the flan was ORGASMIC and the tres leches cake was super good, too. oh, and there’s a picture!  - xtina invited me over to her place for a home-cooked dinner with her and some of her friends on sunday night. i love arbor mist. the food was really good. and then i was convinced (aka liquored-up) enough to go watch harry potter. i’d never seen a hp movie before. i fell asleep for part of the first half. - watched victoria beckham: coming to america with ~*JAMIE*~. again with sangria. victoria has such a dry sense of humor, i like it. “i don’t want to ruin my image. i don’t want to be seen smiling, having fun or eating. perish the thought.”
things to look forward to/upcoming stuff - another potentially awkward family dinner tonight for my dad’s bday. his choice this time? acapulco’s. we’ll be there for happy hour. - lunch with michael on wednesday. - despite the short notice, will be going to san fran with ~*JAMIE*~, lauren and sexxxtina on thurs night. Will be visiting char, Alcatraz… bhangra? :O - not entirely sure about yosemite, but hopefully I’ll figure something out. - oc fair… maybe? - i don’t remember if I mentioned this last time… but the spice girls are back together! yhe whole lottery process or whatever is ridiculous, but whatever. here’s to hoping I get the chance to go. - so, emil… when the hell are we hanging out?!
a couple of random things - working at subway has made me hate some words/phrases. i got so amazingly annoyed one day that i wrote down these words while i was at work. In no particular order: extra (especially when said multiple times, such as, “…extra, extra olives!!1!11”), lots, tons/a ton (“…tons of lettuce!!!1”), more than that (usually said after i already put something on their sandwich and typically not followed by a “please,” which only makes them even more annoying), spinach (seriously just hate the way it sounds, particularly when they hold the “ch” at the end, “…spinachhhhhhh.”), i have the 99 cents, just on half, chipotle (honestly, what makes ppl feel the need to throw in extra sounds and syllables? “chipolotle,” “chipopotle,” etc.)… that’s all. - appropriate song of the month: yes/yes?
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[Jun. 24th, 2007|09:11 pm] |
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| | kelly clarkson - sober | ] | teh ghey
- kelly clarkson's new cd comes out on tuesday! go buy 1,000 copies and give clive davis a good ol' screw you!
- going to see celine in vegas! so excited.
- license to wed comes out july 3!
- i got an internship at the center oc! i learned about sex toys on thursday. and dealt with all sorts of personalities. it was intimidating.
- miguel is back! you could smell the weed as he returned.
- and there's finally some truth to the spice girls getting back together? i'm there!
teh not-so-ghey
- i went hiking with mr. bubbles and my sister... they both got really tired. my dog is old. :(
- last night, went out with my former coworker anna. went drinking in downtown fullerton because she got cheated on. cheaters FTL! needless to say, we both got plastered. went to bed at 3:30, woke up at 6. worked 10 hours. FUN, YEAH?!
- i passed all my classes last quarter with better than expected grades. sweeeettt.
- my chest keeps feeling tense/tight. its lame.
- i started re-reading the god delusion last week because i stopped about half way through when the quarter started. here's a big get-a-yeast-infection-salute to religion.
- the fair is coming up! jamie. lauren. arteries. anyone else that's interested... get ready.
- just had some yummy tuna and not-so-good veggie chili at the gypsey den with jamie.
- what a dumb bitch.
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[Feb. 7th, 2007|06:48 pm] |
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if you guessed me, you're wrong. but i won't be working there anymore. and neither will anyone else. why? i'll let the e-mail i got earlier today from our head chef/manager explain:
It's a sad day for Hamburger Mary's Bar & Grille. As you all have heard that Mary's was for sale................. it is true. Hamburger Mary's Bar & Grille ..................HAS BEEN SOLD! As of Tuesday Feb 13 2007 it will be our last day open, we will be having a farewell party to the staff and any and all guest. It breaks my heart to tell you all this, but we must move on. I thank each of you for your hard work and being loyal to Mary even when you only made $20.00 in tips for your shift! I will be moving on and if any of you need or want to come work where ever I end up, I will put in a good word for you. If you need to use me as a reference to get a new job, please feel free to use my cell number and I will help you any way I can. I love working with all of you and hope the best comes out of this for every one. Special thanks to the team members that have stuck out the good and bad and have worked with me here for the past 16 months. I love you and will miss you all........ David i won't make fun of the grammatical errors and whatnot because i like him. and it's not his fault we're closing. but who tells you that you'll be out of a job in less than a week?! a 'responsible' employee gives a two-week notice if he or she is quitting. a business gives you 6 days. i actually feel really sad about it. i actually enjoyed working there (aside from tuesday evenings...) and i really enjoyed working with all my co-workers. turns out staying at subway wasn't such a bad idea after all.
well. at least i was there from the very beginning to the very end.
in other news: i hate school, i'm in need of money, i want cookies, let's get drunk next saturday, went to the iq dance, i still feel really sad about mary's!11!1, how the hell am i supposed to save money for celine?!, someone get me another job, so sad, astronauts are psychotic, mmm $2 sangria at cha cha cha, jamie (7:08:37 PM): be sure to write about how amazing you think i am, i'm really tired, i bit breasts on friday, diane keaton was annoying.
and just because, here are the songs no one guessed from my previous entry:
1. Robbie Williams - Please Don't Die 4. Samantha Mumba - Gotta Tell You 5. Red Hot Chili Peppers - Road Trippin' 6. Mandy Moore - The Way To My Heart 9. Garbage - I Think I'm Paranoid 10. The Cure - Never Enough 12. P!nk - Conversations With My Thirteen Year Old Self 15. No Doubt - You Can Do It |
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[Jan. 29th, 2007|12:26 am] |
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| | queen - who wants to live forever | ] | - first off, go to my album (password: barcelona) and look at a few pictures i took on my crappy cell phone camera. pictures include stuff from barcelona, the orange county fair, disneyland, and other random things. comment on them. enjoy. - went to the IQ dance on friday with freddie, which was fun! but not before playing (and losing) drinking games with jamie and lauren!!! shots of mailbu rum are actually quite tasty and will get the job done. *~trust~* me. - in case i haven't made this quite clear as of late, i HATE school. - oscar nominations are out and jennifer hudson was nominated for best supporting actress. i hope she loses. dumb twat. i happened to watch babel, notes on a scandal, and little miss sunshine and thought abigail, adriana, cate, and rinko were awesome. seriously, too much hype is annoying and would only make her loss that much more enjoyable (for your consideration, anyone?). - speaking of oscar nominations, here are the movies i watched that were nominated: little miss sunshine, little children (i really enjoyed that movie, go kate!), the departed, volver (watched it in spain!), notes on a scandal, the queen (helen mirren was great, but the movie wasn't), the devil wears prada (emily blunt was robbed!), babel, cars, happy feet, monster house, pan's labyrinth, pirates of the caribbean, the prestige, the black dahlia, children of men (clive owen was robbed, too!), poseidon, aaand... that is all. and i watched them all before they were nominated! woo!!! but uh, i won't begin to list all the movies i watched that DIDN'T get nominated... - speaking of movies that didn't/won't get nominated: because i said so! feb 2! mark your calendars. - freddie. jamie. lauren. celine in vegas. i know it's down to when i'm available. ugh. so much pressure. I HATE ALL OF YOU. - "if a tomato or pickle falls out of place, do you get really pissed off?" - some dude on my supposedly really focused appearance while making a party sub. - lauren and i made out because she drank from a bottle of rum that freddie drank from. - i still haven't licked pudding off of jamie's boob. or bought a beaded pussy from a touch of romance. but i ate a cherry after she already put it in her mouth. - they're replaying top chef's latest episode where it got narrowed down to the final two. they got it all wrong. - freddie brought some chocolates and a strawberry parfait thingamabob to work tonight! and i ate the parfait thingy! and it was good. YAY! - i've got the toto song "africa" stuck in my head. ugh.
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[Dec. 13th, 2006|10:04 pm] |
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| | lethargic | ] |
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| | nine black alps - cosmopolitan | ] | much to your dismay... yes, i'm still alive. it's been almost a year since i've posted anything. and SO much has happened. chances are, you already heard about it, but i'll recap some highlights:
- i got an annual pass for disneyland! 220 pre-selected days of fun! i went for the second time on tuesday. some drunken child stumbled all over jamie and i. child needs intervention. - hamburger mary's x-mas party later that evening. free booze and food... yeah, you wish you were there. everyone was pretty quiet at first... and then the liquor started pouring and suddenly everyone was in a talkative mood. myself included. - oh, i turned 21 on april 18, by the way. thank you, miguel, for making me wish i hadn't. - my arteries are on the verge of being completely clogged, thanks to contributions by (in no particular order): nachos in palm springs (and everywhere else for that matter) with jamie, miguel and scott; fried everything at the orange county fair with lauren and jamie; cheeses of all sorts in barcelona with freddie; random late-night johnnie's pastrami, tito's tacos, alerto's, the abbey, etc. runs; plantains at felix and bossa nova; and just about everything else i eat on a regular basis. mmm... cholesterol. - barcelona, madrid and london for a month! so financially draining yet so fun at the same time. i heart red pandas and desigual, taking pictures with a red teletubby (while people suddenly crowd around in amusement at the overt gayness of it all), and riding on a double-decker bus. - talking to people on the phone while they're eating is not my thing. mmkay, freddeh? :D - "did you sleep with tony delveccio?" "a little." - made my half sister cry. - i suck at mario kart ds and i want to play you over a wireless connection. i hate the princess. - spent thanksgiving with my sister, freddie and mr. bubbles. we cooked, ate lots and walked the dog. - "mom, don't do anything i wouldn't do." "i think i crossed that line when i got a date." - working at hamburger mary's during the evenings and sunday brunches makes me susceptible to some desperate people. most notably was the 40-something-year-old who gave me his business card that reads: "massage by david. deep-tissue massage by a daddy's strong, healing hands. - full service stress release - 949.929.1336" well, if you're interested, there's the 411. and he has an ad in the advocate. - paris hilton has a major wonky eye. - i went to the movies by myself for the first time ever to watch fast food nation between classes one day. went again to watch the kate winslet movie little children. i figured i'd mention it was a kate winslet movie otherwise it'd read "went again to watch little children." save the pedophilia for the catholic church. - want to read the god delusion. it's probably a bit extreme, but i'm sure it'll be interesting. - two people that need to die right away: ann coulter & shirley phelps. one hates everything liberal because she's an idiot like that and the other thinks the amish girls that died were whores, deserved to die, and wanted to picket at their funerals. and gay people are evil. - thanks to emil's lovely planning, saw margaret cho at largo to celebrate jon's bday (who was hammered by the end of the night)! grand finale included her unveiling her manhood. if i squinted a little, she looked like char... penis and all. - went to a going away... celebration?... for sexxxtina's departure to le gay paris. now who'll take us to crepe in the grip?! :tear: - douche. - fantasia sounds like donald duck and looks like ass. taylor hicks won this year's american idol. tits mcphee was the runner up. saw kelly in concert (again). - x-mas is approaching fast and i haven't finished buying gifts yet. luckily, since i have about... 3.5 friends, i don't have much shopping to do. and what better way to spend x-mas than going to vegas with jamie and lauren. jamie has "a plan." i figured it out. meanwhile, step and her boot haven't. - i hate school and if you don't... you sicken me. at least a little. - people who only call you when they need something should be thrown in jail with some horny, burly man named butch and a diesel dyke named rose. - nip/tuck is awesome! and i got the wuzzles on dvd! oh, the limited childhood memories i have are slowly coming back. - helped freddie move... which included me driving a u-haul! so much fun. driving the u-haul... not the actual moving part.
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[Jan. 21st, 2006|06:11 pm] |
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| | all the songs quoted | ] | welcome to the colonoscopy of mimi.
its been a long time. i shouldn't have left you. without a dope beat to step to. step to. step to.
oh my gawd, i haven't updated in what seems like AGES. so much to say. so much has happened. i'm not going to remember it all, but i'm going to try.
- yes, i need help. all sorts of it. last quarter i fucked up in my classes. hard. this quarter isn't off to a great start, either. i wish i were rich. or at least had more money. fucking books. and permits. it's absurd.
i got my F and my C and i got my K, too, and the only thing that's missing is a bitch like U
- i've felt happy, confused, loved, depressed, stupid and more. usually a lot of them within a day. i actually considered going to see a counselor. that only made me feel worse. they say admitting you have a problem is the first step. it was my first step, alright... in the wrong direction. its when my friends i hadn't seen in a while said that i'd been acting "strange" and "not like myself" that i started to worry.
it's not that i think you're heartless. you just don't know what you've put me through.
- sexxxtina kkk's back! in fact she's been back. i just haven't seen her. so not cool.
just think of me as the pages in your diary
- went bike riding with my xtina a few weeks back. first trip consisted of 10 miles from beach blvd & warner or so to the huntington beach pier. last time we biked from my house to uci and back. 15 miles, w00t! quite the accomplishments if i do say so myself.
there were pages turned, bridges burned, some lessons learned
- guess who's moving on up? well, not by much, but i'm becoming a server at the hamburger mary's. i'm still going to be a food runner, too, though, until i'm 100% sure i like being just a server. woo, i'm excited. and i dropped a burger on a lady yesterday but let's not go into that, mmkay? haha, it went surprisingly well.
carino, ya sabes que te querio, pero... no debes jugar con mi amor
- father dearest switched from cable to satellite... can't say i'm thrilled. i can't watch the golden girls anymore, damn it! at least i have the first three seasons on dvd, what what!
- i can't wait to turn 21! or maybe i can. whatevsss, point is, i turn 21 april 18. on that weekend, its vegas, baby! w00t! chances are, if you're reading this, you're invited. or obligated to come. because you're cool like that. and i heart you.
- ate nachos. twinkies. chocolate mousse creme brulee bomb thingamabob. next weekend: more nachos. i dont know if i'm going to be alive to see my 21st birthday come to think of it.
- because most of you bitches have been influencing me to drink moreso than usual... i think i've come to the conclusion that i'm a peaceful drinker. yes, no?
but even if i made a vow to promise not to miss you now and try to hide the truth inside, i'd fail cause i, i just can't live a lie
- speaking of drinking... oh my god, had a creepy experience last week with a drunken sorority girl. you probably heard the story by now so i won't go into detail about it... but the basics: chick wanted to get fucked by miguel, have her boob sucked by me, bit both of us and scared the living shit out of me. i was surprised to find that i wasn't castrated the next day. can't say the same for miguel.
why do you love me? its driving me crazy
- mr bubbles misses most of you. i say most because some of you haven't met him yet. he's anxious and waiting to do so.
i'm not an artist, i'm a fucking work of art
- watched a show called "shelter dogs." its about dogs... in a shelter. a documentary. two dogs. euthanized. real tears. i dont even cry when i see another human being get tortured, but as soon as a little puppy dies i'm in tears. fag i am.
i'm just a soul whose intentions are good, oh lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
- in the past week or two, i've gone out to eat with the following: cindy, ex-coworker, jamie (nachos in the back seat... LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT!), marline (haha... she said strawberry "da-key-ree," and i thought i was a novice), miguel, scott, & simon. i want to go to the gypsy den. and OH EM GEE, sexxxtina claims that genki is closed?! NIGGA, WHAT?! madre's from now on! because i know how much she loves it! we always have crepe in the grip, tho. aw, fond memories. :) must get thai food with xtina.
we make love, but don't fall in love... i want your body, not your heart
- my family's fucked up. not so much the immediate family, more like the extended ones. people talk shit! and i don't even see them often. but that's what they're talking shit about. grandmother's 80th bday partay is coming up and its being held at an embassy suites in anaheim. yeah, so, the invitation we got is made out to my dad, mom and sister. guess who wasn't invited? yeah, i thought it was unintentional, too... turns out they said they wouldn't bother counting me in because i never show up to anything and i practically act like i'm no longer a part of the family. wow. that takes some balls! especially considering i went to my aunt and uncle's anniversary a few months back despite having other plans and being told about it the day of. and i socialized. a lot. they can kiss my ass, my friends are my family.
there's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight just a bridge that i've got to burn
- i hope you all had a happy new year and merry xxxmas! i know i didn't! spent xmas at home. nothing exciting, but mr. bubbles had fun. rang in the new year to a bunch of champagne-hungry homos. it felt kind of lonely, actually, seeing all these people in their large groups hanging out, having fun, couples, friends, etc. and there i was. with a tray with cheap glasses of champagne. i'm not bitter. i promise.
now all that's left of me is what i pretend to be: so together but so broken up inside
- gonna hang out with charlamaine and a couple of other #sc-ers! i watched spice world the other day. aw, i loved it.
help, help... this dress is dry clean only
- jamie's idea of fun: one laxative. some pepto bismol. ingest at same time. sit and wait. winner will be determined in an hour.
run, run, baby, run, run, baby, run
- so many jello shots... oh god. but they were surprisingly good! and ya'll made me feel like a loser for wanting them. but yes, i think having about a box each... not the wisest decision any of us have ever made.
don't miss the diamonds along the way, every road has led us here today
-got dropped from all my classes for not paying fees on time. managed to get back into two of them. i'm taking one upper div class... everything else, prior to me being dropped, was full. or new only. wtf? i hate school so much right now. meanwhile, i'm taking: the social animal, small group behavior, chicana feminisms and history of chicano/latino education. no, i'm not a mecha person. just desperate for courses.
make your mistakes on your own time
- my dvd/cd player on my laptop is acting up. someone please fix it. i'll fry you a twinkie. oh, and its come down to either a penguin or stich for my next tattoo. VOTE NOW!!!
my heart's at a low i'm so much to manage i think you should know that i've been damaged |
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[Nov. 4th, 2005|10:29 am] |
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| | kelly clarkson - walk away | ] | im an official hamburger mary's employee. w00t! opening date has changed from dec 1 to dec 5. apparently some b-list celebs will be there... they're working on getting cher to make an appearance for the grand opening in january.
did yoga for the first time ever three days ago! and im still a bit sore. :\
tacos tonight! wings sunday!
i always knew ashlee simpson was an idiot... but now she's a drunken idiot! DOWNLOAD THIS! you can thank me later. :)
another thing i always knew... char is a man! proof:

some fish for the lesbos (san francisco aquarium):

penii brings a smile to simon's face:

i gave you everything and never asked for anything now look at me, i'm all alone. |
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[Oct. 28th, 2005|06:28 pm] |
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| | destiny's child - emotions | ] | i've tried to be positive. i've tried to be optimistic ever since something happened. but something, no matter how miniscule, seems to keep persuading me to quit with the optimism. basically, a bunch of random stupid shit has been happening over the past couple of weeks and i can't take it. karma? coincidence? where to start...
- my laptop's monitor died. just died. i was sitting there, moving the mouse. and it went black. it was dim for a while, then it just went black. it's virtually useless and apparently there's no warranty for it. - my laptop's monitor died just in time for midterms. took midterms this week. failed the one i actually studied for. - lost my wallet (which just happened to have my drivers license, school id, credit card and debit card). - and today... driving home on what finally seemed like an ordinary day, just to have the truck in front of me drop a bucket of tile adhesive/glue. i hit it. it got caught under my car, so i had to pull over. it was jammed in there and a lady helped me yank it out while i reversed. glue's all over the bottom of my car and it even managed to 'splash' onto, what im assuming to be, vital parts of my car. lifted the hood only to be greeted by tons of smoke and glue. - and the most emotionally draining of them all... i'm sure you're all aware of by now.
i just wanna be happy, i'm not used to feeling otherwise. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2005|11:15 pm] |
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| | kelly clarkson - behind these hazel eyes | ] |
single. not by choice.
swallow me then spit me out,
for hating you i blame myself. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2005|06:50 pm] |
yay this looks like fun.
01. Something random about you. 02. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 03. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. 04. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 05. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 06. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 07. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you. 08. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2005|08:51 pm] |
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| | bored | ] |
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| | jennifer lopez - i got you | ] | just wanted to show off my new icon. muah.
oh, watched charlie and the chocolate factory. it was meh. and finished reading the da vinci code. it was good. :D i want to read cat's cradle again. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2005|08:43 pm] |
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| | spice girls - goodbye | ] | Fabiola Zendejas, 20, of Santa Ana, a student, died July 5, 2005, of leukemia. Visitation: 3 p.m. today, with vigil at 8 p.m., Family Mortuary, Santa Ana. Services 11 a.m. Friday, Our Lady of Guadalupe, Santa Ana. Survived by: parents, Rosalba and Ysmael; brother, Joe; sisters, Valerie, Cassandra; grandmother, Agapita Lopez.
we weren't necessarily the closest of friends, but this has been the closest to home that death has ever struck. i had gone about a month ago to visit her while she was in the hospital. it's strange recalling how she was leaving the hospital a few days after we visited, looking fine and acting like her normal self. and just like that she's gone. i haven't gone to the visitation, though i'm planning on it. i honestly don't want to go for emotion's sake, but i know that it'd be best for me to go, so i could actually confront reality and deal with the fact that it happened, because ignoring it is only going to make it difficult each time i think about it. at least i'll have my cristina to go with me. we'll miss you, fabi... |
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[Jun. 28th, 2005|02:55 pm] |
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| | blank | ] |
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| | black eyed peas - pump it | ] |
...to update my dear lj. i bet you're so excited! soooo much has happened and since i have such a bad habit of remembering what happened since i last updated, im gonna just randomly state what i can remember...
- AIDs Walk on june 5! had lots of fun, took mr bubbles with me. i was in good company, too (freddeh, freddeh's family, xtina, simon, sexxxtina, brittany, patrick, to name a few). some lazy people didnt go :cough, charmaine, cough: but it's all good. it was a much needed workout (for the dog, that is... ;)). afterward headed over to some shopping center in irvine to get some food. got some nachos at el conejo that were pretty good. dropped off mr bubbles and headed over to university theater thing to watch saving face (lesbo flick!) with freddeh, charmaine and helen. it was good. apparently char and i identify with the main character chick and freddeh and helen identify with the ballet skank. as if the day wasn't busy enough, headed over to freddeh's so people could prepare for the VIP Par-tay at sexxxtina/brittany's... went to the par-tay and had tons of fun playing charades and eating like a pig. the team i was in lost... but thats ok, because we were better... we didnt pass on 100 cards like the opposing team. i think neil wanted to kill us.
- freddeh graduated!!! congratulations, fredddeehhhhh. :hug, hug, slap: you could've waited another 2 years and just graduated with me, you know... but that would've been to convenient. anyway, went to aldrich park with simon and caught up with freddeh's familia to watch him graduate. we got good bad seats. good because they were so close, bad because freddeh was in the exact opposite side of the park. grr. saw him and mr alonzo graduate. it was a long, evil ceremony and i was dying of hunger, but it was worth it, even though there were some hardcore butch lesbians sitting behind us who were getting anal about some people standing (they started yelling in their best trucker-esque voices: "DOWN IN FRONT!" "MOVE!" "GET OUTTA THE WAY!!!"). afterward headed over with the diaz family to super antojitos to eat mexican food like there was no tomorrow. had the best nachos (notice a trend?).
- celebrated freddeh's graduation with a graduation partay at simon's place! it went well, the food was good, the people were good... at first. and then out came the alcohol and everyone's inhibitions went right out the door... which made for a perfect
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[May. 25th, 2005|07:34 pm] |
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| | kelly clarkson - behind these hazel eyes | ] | ohhh myy god. haven't updated in ages and i choose NOW to do it. now that nothing significant has happened. well, let's see if i can remember some "tidbits" of information from the past...
- went to the end of the year celebration where i swear i saw a snake slither up on to the stage and hand out an award. saw my dj xtina for the first time in ages! saw other irrelevant people, too... simon, sexxxtina kkk, chow mein, (have you gone down on) helen (yet?), brit-a-knee, and the list goes on and on and on... oh, yeah, freddie. he was being lazy. i was OBJECTIFIED in every mean possible... nolan practically raped me on the dance floor, char tried to give it to me from behind for a photo-op and... well, that's about it. - going to AIDs Walk! WOO!!! Mr Bubbles and I have collectively raised $50... no thanks to you fuckers. erm, i mean, yeah... its great, isnt it?! - had neil taking pictures of freddie and i at the worst moments (sleeping, kissing, having sex... ual feelings. turns out his pictures didn't get developed. one word: HAH! - currently at the library in long beach with el sexy... aw, this is only the second time i've been here. first time was with freddie, char and simon. and sexxxtina? i dont remember. POINT IS... freddeh and i ditched the rest of the crew and went to the beach. i'll end the story there. ;) - im taking a queer lives and knowledges class this quarter... lots of familiar faces in there. gee, what a surprise. its interesting... im learning about my predecessors! - there are some crazy broads in the table near/in front of me standing on chairs and taking pictures of what seems to be... a table. dykes. - i bought mr bubble's a new bed last night! and gave him a bath the night before! now need to take him to get his nails trimmed so he'll be nice and ready for AIDs Walk on June 5. - i found out while freddie was in italy that I LIKE SUSHI. authentic or not. this revelation occured on one trip to san marino with simon to visit sexxxtina kkk's OG place. went to a place called genki, a japanese fusion restaurant. the food was good for the most part. simon got sushi. i tried. i liked. i've been hooked ever since. that had to be one of the longest dinners in another county with sexxxtina kkk and simon that i have EVER had!!! oh, we also had tempura... which isn't really a japanese dish. it was actually something the japanese adopted from the portuguese... who adopted it from the arabs. originally called quattuor tempora, which stands for "four times," which indicates the number of times they'd eat it as part of religious practice. i think it was religious practice. im an idiot. - i hate people. - new owners at work. they're so nice. they've been there since saturday, though they didn't officially take over the place until today. i cant wait til i tell them that i wont be going back next week!!! - inisignificant event of the week: I SAW KELLY CLARKSON IN CONCERT!!! oh-em-gee! loved it. i'm biased, but she was great nonetheless. you can't go wrong with a rock version of "a moment like this." oh, oh, and great covers of eurythmics "sweet dreams" and janis joplin "piece of my heart." thank you simon and freddeh for going with me!!! i thought we'd be the oldest ones there but the ones in front of us were much significantly older. AND the rest of the crowd was of around the same age. i was expecting little pre-teens. not the case. lucky. OH and great standing spots! only like 3 "rows" from the stage. - speaking of kelly clarkson... she'll be at the BREN EVENTS CENTER in september! simon and freddeh are going. AGAIN. i havent asked, but they will, dammit. or at least i will. by myself. :( i know charmaine wants to go, since she's a self-admitted closeted kelly fan. :) - OH met up with #spicechat people! total fun. the canadians were great fun. and first time ever to the rainforest cafe! - i turned TWENTY one month and one week ago. i feel OLD. not as old as just about everyone else i hang out with, though. tee-hee. - helped freddie get a cell phone! you may thank me. - just found out that the cures sang two songs that i always hear on the radio... i feel a little bit smarter. - i came out to my sister! woo! she's all good. the mother started interrogating me about my sexuality. REALLY creepy moment. both the parents had a "talk" with me. for some reason they thought i was doing drugs/getting drunk/flunking all my classes/doing all sorts of illegal activities... when in reality i haven't been THIS studious and responsible before in my life. SO my mother didn't talk to me for weeks... and took it upon herself to be mad at me and take it out on me and my dog. how does that make sense? bitch. she's been nice lately though... she left to reno for 1.5 weeks and just came back in a significantly better mood. - i've been neglecting many of my friends lately. i think things'll change come summer. - freddie's mommy is back from mexico! word has it she brought me something! :tear: i feel so accepted. now if only my mommy was as accepting. - i have a new icon! - saw monster-in-law and want to watch mr and mrs smith. jlo's back! - kylie has breast cancer. :'( - calculus is stressing me out way too much. - mariah carey's face has never looked so fake before. i wonder how long it takes her to put it on in the morning. - my infamous fossil watch broke. :( well, just the little metal thingy that you use to put in the holes on the band to close it... that made no sense. point is it still works i just can't put it on. :( so my dad gave me a new one! - carrie underwood for nashville star!!! i mean... american idol. - took a dozen smirnoff twists to work a few sundays ago. my coworker and i each had 5, the other coworker had 2. we were celebrating his last day at work. and he only drank two. WEAK. my other coworker... who drank 5... is a short lil' skinny girl. and it took absolutely no toll on her. then again, smirnoffs are like soda. squirt to be exact. yay for drinking on the job. - i still heart freddeh... but i do not heart when my laptop is raped for shakira purposes!!! muah muah muah muah. |
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[Jan. 17th, 2005|12:23 am] |
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| happy new year from london |
[Jan. 3rd, 2005|06:08 pm] |
:D
so i only have about 5 minutes left on this thing and im out of the appropriate amount of change necessary to add any more time... so i'll make it brief and just discuss what went on today while it's still fresh in my mind.
first off, i didn't get more than 1-2 hours of sleep in the past 24 hours... im not really jet-lagged... its just that we did a lot in the morning yesterday and everyone decided to go to the hostel and sleep for a bit... which just made it that much harder to sleep later on at night. anyway, since i was already awake at 7am in the morning today, didn't have to worry about having to wake up.
7 am... went to breakfast with the rest of the cliq (my sexeh freddeh, cousin adri, her boyfriend saul). the hostel here gives the lovely free breakfast of cereal and toast with jam... now that's what i call a hearty meal. got ready soon after we were finished and headed off to the underground tube system thingamabob. headed over to the london tower.
the london tower was actually very interesting and it looked very authentic. we took the guided tour so we actually knew what we were looking at rather than walking around like a bunch of fools. that lasted about 2-3 hours surprisingly enough.
went to a lovely british restaurant known as kentucky fried chicken... haha. we had indian food yesterday, everyone else but freddeh and i seem to be afraid and disgusted by it so we stuck to something familiar just to please everyone. but tonight we will be having pizza! :D
after eating we went back to the underground tube and headed over to the aquarium. i only have thirty seconds so i'll have to update this later.
hope everyone had a fun time! byeeeee |
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